My birthday was April 26th. A big one. And I don’t ask for much from the Baby Mama but I desperately needed that weekend for myself. To myself. So I did ask to have that and for the kids to stay with her. It’s also been many…many years since I had a vehicle that was just for me. Without goldfishies smashed in the mats. Without puffy paint smeared around from transporting “art”. And without Target or doctor’s office stickers stuck all over the headliner. So, I promised myself that if the truck I had my eye on was still there when I got back, I was going to buy it. For me. Sort of for making it this far! Even if my daughter said, “any color but white”.
My dad is a Ford man so he was less than pleased with me. But I think he’s never quite let go of being the Gatekeeper of curating family cars. And I reminded him how proud he’d been to hand me my Honda (which clearly was not a Ford) way back when. To do that for me. And that it’s still just that. A matter of pride. But what I choose to do for me and my own family…and I’m dreadfully happy about this, in particular.
I don’t plan on driving it tons, but having it did give me the opportunity to get my Jeep fixed up and it’s finally in the shop today…all day. The A/C has been out, wiper blade gone, back one burnt out from my bike rack, needs an oil change, clicks/clacks, muddy tire wobble, and a headlight out. They can have it. Me and the newbie are getting acquainted.
The truck has been a blessing in many ways. With the help of a buddy, the biggest and, in no uncertain terms, life changing aspect has been the readout screen. A huge one at that. I can bluetooth my transcriber right through it and read what I can’t hear. And see subtitles that aren’t fine print on shows and movies if I have my little converter thing with me. The system takes down my words as well with fair accuracy. It doesn’t record or sound anywhere near ideal, but to me, it’s been heaven. And it’s helped me feel a lot less separated and isolated. A little more able. So. I’m happy. And occasionally youtubing gaming walkthroughs that *aren’t* Minecraft or Pokemon World. And this is a No Pony Zone. Neigh.