A Love Like No Other

Here, in this thing called midlife, I have no regrets. I have hopes. I have wishes. Things I want to learn. Things I want to teach. But, no regrets. Every moment. Every choice. Every word…every downfall and every success has come around to show it’s purpose. Now. Every loss one day provides it’s gain, even if it takes years to make itself clear.

We will continue to circle back to our losses. Our trauma. Our mistakes. Until we are granted the insight, growth and perspective necessary to face it all boldly no longer with pain. But with fearlessness in fate and trust in the unknown. With love and in hope for the future.

My FitBit may register much lower these days. I’ve slowed way down and the gray has crept in. But, as these trajectories begin to align themselves so many years later, I have landed right where I was meant to. And I am grateful for what lies ahead on this quiet path and for the ability to help my daughter and her new family flourish to their fullest as long as I’m able. I hope one day they will know any measure of the same happiness and joy I have known in my lifetime. That’s my wish…but, no regrets. Not a one.

Sam

53 thoughts on “A Love Like No Other

  1. Ahhh! There is nothing like anew baby. God is good……But….I seem to have lost out on you. Is it me or have you been off for a while.?

    1. He is the absolute coolest! I think it’s been about 6 months since I’ve posted. There was a lot to tend to here and I needed to keep my wits and nerves sharp, lol.

  2. I’m glad to see you back, Sam. I’ve been wondering how you are. There’s wisdom in your words here, hold on them to.

    1. Thank you, Val. It’s been a high anxiety period for me needless to say. Hopefully as we settle in around here, I’ll get back to writing. Right now I’m enjoying the peace and slower pace ☺

  3. Sam, you’re back!!!! Look at this sweet little baby! Congratulations 🥰🥰

    1. Thank you so much, T! 🤗 I’m down sick today so I had some time to share our good news. “Happily” on quarantine so I don’t spread it around 😭

      1. Does this mean you’ve added “grandpa” to your list of accomplishments?!

        Feel better soon! Glad to have a post from you again

        1. Absolutely! But, I’m going to teach him to call me Gizmo 😂😂😂

          1. Awwwww 🥰🥰🥰 too cute!

  4. So thankful for all of your full circle moments, as I am thankful for my own.

    Congratulations on this precious addition to your family. You will be an amazing grandpa! ❤❤❤

    1. Thank you, Allister! It is a humbling and never ending circle 😢 …I am so beyond grateful.

  5. I was going to email you today. I’ve been hoping things are well and I’m so happy to see they are!!🥰😍
    Welcome to the grandparents club!! Big hugs and congratulations to you, the new parents and the new Auntie! I bet she’s loving it.
    💌

    1. That would have been near perfect timing. He was born on the 26th 🤗

      Thank you so much, I’m a little far gone over the moon for words this week and I’m not sure how I’ve withstood this amount of stress and worry…but they are settling in slowly and surely 😭

      Little SisterAunt is in heaven. She is all about tha babiez!

  6. Congratulations! So happy you are back. The slower pace is so refreshing.

    1. It absolutely is! Thank you so much ☺ I’m looking forward to the fine tuning of the balance in the house in the months to come. One foot in front of the other!

  7. It’s good to see/read you again. Thanks for a lovely, thoughtful post.

  8. I am absolutely mush over this! So sweet and beautiful. And so happy to see you posting again. I’ve missed seeing you around, my friend. I am assuming that this means you all are doing well and your daughter has made it through. So happy for you!

    1. Thank you so much, TJ! 🤗 I am getting by taking things day by day. I’ve been so incredibly enamored with him that I couldn’t wait to get home the last few days, lol.

  9. Wow, that is great! Congratulations! Good to see you back!

    1. Thank you so much, Robyn. It’s still a little (a lot) emotionally chaotic for me but I’m hiding it from them well….I *think* 😏

  10. Congratulations on your growing family… Seeing your post tonight was a bright spot, as I’ve missed them and hoped you were well.

    1. Aw thank you so much! I am doing okay by standards of overextension, lol. I miss WordPress terribly, my mind has just been elsewhere since the summer. Plenty of snow days coming to catch up though!

  11. Congratulations, Sam! What a blessing! Your writing is wonderful so I hope you can keep doing it.☺️

    1. Thank you so much 🤗 He is more perfect than I imagined and lends a whole new purpose for all of us. Thank you again, I’m looking forward to catching up here when he and I have some quiet guy time (constant sleeping!)

  12. That’s so awesome Sam. Congrats. Such a beautiful baby. Did you see my post from a couple weeks ago? I have a new grandson too. Sept 14. Of course he is number 8, but with four sons…of course six belong to one of them! Enjoy this special peaceful time. Grandparenting is much sweeter in a different way. The moments spent just nuzzling, watching and feeling don’t feel so stolen or measured as when fitting it into a hectic schedule. Love him lots, Gizmo!

    1. Hahahah @ Gizmo! I’m going to make that fly as soon as he starts talkin, lol! I haven’t read any past posts for months but I’m hoping to catch up very soon. Yay for your new grandbaby, too!

  13. Beautiful and insightful
    Post. Thanks for sharing it. Congratulations on your beautiful grand baby.

    1. Thank you so much! Get to go home to him soon on a rained out Halloween night!

  14. Look at that adorably handsome little guy! Congratulations! 🎉 I’ve heard there’s not much better than being a grandparent. Happy Halloween! 🎃

    1. Thank you, I’m finding that’s true, lol. He is the absolute best. And my doggie is enjoying cleaning up his face and hands several times a day.

  15. Beautiful photo, Sam! I’m in awe. We do have to slow down sometimes and there is no shame in it. I used to write once a week, then every other week, now it’s when I can collect enough of my brain to put reasonable words on paper. We do what we can and manage with what is the moments priority. Keep squeezing that little one after you are feeling better.

    1. Agreed 100%! My physical energy is so limited that it’s that much more difficult to get posts up on the regular. Like you say, it takes more ‘gathering’ of my faculties to write with the slowing down several (or a hundred) paces! Thank you so much 😊

  16. Good to see you back! Congrats on your beautiful grandbaby! ♥♥

    1. Thank you Janie! I’m having fun hoarding him 😂

      1. I have a big smile on my face in hearing from you Sam! Congrats! Enjoy every precious moment. I am sooo happy for you! 🙂

  17. Congratulations to you, Sam! Isn’t it amazing how well babies fit right in the crook of our arm. You look like a natural.

    1. Thank you! It really is, he’s like a ‘lil warm bowling ball or baby pie.

      1. You need to write this in his baby book. He’s gonna love it some day! 😀

  18. It’s been a long while since I’ve been on here but I wanted to check in on you and found this. Congrats old pal 🙂. I know you’re over the moon. Babies have a way of putting everything into perspective. I hope you’re having many days where everything is just right! He’s super cute.

    1. Thank you, we are but we basically just sleep and he watches a lot of Shark Tank and Dateline with me 😁 His mom hasn’t made me change it to Elmo yet!

      1. I see Elmo on the horizon. I love Elmo. He’s a pretty happy guy, has lots of friends, sings, dances and is so pc. You have so much to look forward to 😉. Lalalala lalalala Elmo’s world.

  19. Sounds like the perfect baby

  20. Feeling more and more the same myself.

    1. It’s *definitely* a peace I needed and needed to grow in to 😣

      1. A forever process I suppose.🤪

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