Let’s Get Ready to Awkward!

Because I need to lighten the mood, while I think about a legitimate human post later.

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The Sorta Black and White Photo Challenge

I’ve been a little battered lately so I’ve taken the week off here, but I did finally get a much needed kick in the ass today. Such as it is, I figured I could attempt a resurfacing with quasi-participation in the black and white photo challenge by my WordPress Buddy on her own B&W Post! I’m excited to post these, and thank you so much for thinking of me! 

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A Darkish Day

The end of December is rolling up here again. When so much started to change for me. It’s been longer Off now, than it ever was On, which is a little difficult to come to terms with. But, like any loss or pain that changes us, I’ll probably always take note of time passed. At least for a long while yet. Time I never thought I’d have to survive. Or make it through. Just couldn’t imagine it back then. Just couldn’t picture things this far out. Here we are. 

I’m not exactly sure what I’ve proved to myself about my threshold. If anything. Some things I don’t care to reflect on as much as I do others. Some just are. And there’s nothing more to be done.

Often there’s no summation. No tying things neatly together. No end point. No answer. No fix. No reboot. Only that moment you tried to be brave. When you tried to be reassuring. Tried to smile. That moment when you knew you were never going to speak to someone again.

I can still smile. And I do. Because I haven’t quite admitted it to myself yet. Not ready, and that’s okay. It’s just one of those things I don’t care to reflect on. Not yet. Until I am, I’m content recognizing time passed, and smiling to myself about the things that came before that moment. 

The world is still moving. Life will continue to happen. To go forward. Positively. I’ve come this far and, either way, I remain grateful for the things I’ve learned about myself in the past year. The good and bad. And thankful for what I’ve been taught by those I cared for and shared time with. Good and bad. I’m trying to accept them both, along with everything else…eventually. Time will tell.

Sam

Dammit! Where are my Lucky Troll Dolls!??

I’ve taken a second to fill out my Bingo card for everyone…😭😭😭

I may have won if there were spaces for “Obsolete Movie Quotes”, “Why?”, “Silent Jealous Fury Towards Your Boyfriend”, or “Migraine”.

Happy Friday!

Sam

Keeping my Shit Together (i.e. Carrying On)

There will always be spaces left over. Places that can’t be filled. Or aren’t. Things are constantly reworking themselves. Settling in. Falling apart. You do the best you can with what you’ve got. Sometimes true. But it may be more the case that you do the best you can with how you’re feeling. Which is often a dangerous thing to be honest about. Continue reading “Keeping my Shit Together (i.e. Carrying On)”

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