I have been reflecting on the changes around me lately. How it happened and the part I played. I realize how much has improved but also…the things I still struggle with that keep me from feeling balanced. Sorting out the things I feel I deserve some grace on, against the things I know I deserve none…
…Some of those things I struggle with will always fall somewhere in between the two.
I have been working my little butt off today and have another few days yet to go to prepare for the week ahead. My eyes are burning out of my face, my back hurts, and I’m running on Good Will and fumes at this point.
In these weeks post-op I’ve had some intermittent trouble with my hands being shaky. Something I’ve not had problems with before. It’s a strange side effect along with major heat intolerance that I hope will pass. So far, apart from the expected, these have been my only issues. I’ll accept them graciously. While I’ve opened myself up to a hell of a lot of hurt here by saying too much to the wrong people, well…let’s just say I couldn’t possibly care less anymore.
So, on to more important things.