The anxiety level is high today…which I wasn’t expecting. I think it must be mental exhaustion, physical need, emotional confusion, dread and relief all in one. There have been major successes this week, along with the presentation of some family issues I need put to bed and behind me. I’m tired.
I have been reflecting on the changes around me lately. How it happened and the part I played. I realize how much has improved but also…the things I still struggle with that keep me from feeling balanced. Sorting out the things I feel I deserve some grace on, against the things I know I deserve none…
…Some of those things I struggle with will always fall somewhere in between the two.
Continue reading ““The Middle””
I have been working my little butt off today and have another few days yet to go to prepare for the week ahead. My eyes are burning out of my face, my back hurts, and I’m running on Good Will and fumes at this point.
I haven’t been sleeping very well this week, and it’s led to a lot of other trials for me. Along with migraines and not remembering to eat. Oh yeah, that. Baby steps. And sorting through an awful lot right now.
…And now I’m gonna have nightmares about F#@king Mermaid Cove! I bring it on myself cause I wanna, dammit! I’ve been working on the pre schoolyear cleanup of mass accumulation and remembered these all tucked away along with the dog bed zipper covers I no longer need. So…been a day. Continue reading “Taking a Breather”